Actually probably seems impossible, when they leave when you’re standing there at the end of what you had & the beginning of when everything falls apart. Sometimes many of us build a massive wall around us & we shout & yell at people who care for us, who which sounds crazy at the time want to make everything okay, instead we tell everyone that the only person who can make our dark rainy days & the only person or thing that can bring down those walls that you built are the exact same person you made you put those walls up.
In a crazy way it makes sense, but most of the time It doesn’t because there the reason why your so horrible to some of the people your close to, they are the reason why your probably breaking down to bits, every time someone mentions love, forever, together, you probably just want to stand up & walk away – far far away & hope those words never come to you again, but there’s hope that you’ll meet someone better when your going through this rebuilding stage. You’ll hope he/she or whatever it is comes back better they’ll give you everything you what you want&need, that they’ll do everything you like + love – That this time would be perfect.
That’s what we always say this time, it’ll be perfect, or this one is the one.
We rebuild ourselves for that moment that moment, when we are ready to fall back in love, to commit, when we say to ourselves & our dearly poor shattered heart its going to be okay. & yes its amazing when we feel we’ve gotten over things or people or persons or certain events that have happened in our pasts, its one of the greatest feelings besides love? Or winning the lotto?Or just doing something crazy.
But during our rebuilding stage we have to be proud of ourselves, because although we don’t like to admit it but we change, some go through changes & turn to the dark side and completely just spin outa control, some turn to focusing on school & getting grades up & some just completely just give up. However you dealt with your loss or gain it helps to know that those who still care will be there, & some times those who didn’t make it you will miss. I know I do – Its fun & painful walking through the past, but its comforting to know that you had that thing that made you go through hell & back – made you somewhat stronger & hopefully a better person inside or out or maybe both. If only we could all see the happiness after we are completely broken. If only we could maybe refrain from saying all those nasty things after everything we said, then maybe it would of made things a little easier – Maybe we’d ask questions every now & again WHY,HOW,WHEN, but whatever the answer.
The question is now that what do when we’ve become what we believe is more reformed, ready, new, better – is what we do with our selves, what we try to do so we can move into the future, & so we can become a little better to those who we meet in our futures.
So I’ve learned that rebuilding myself, is a way to get a chance at everything & anything that I’ve lost& gained at the same time. + I might be crazy but I think I have a better chance with 270608 now LOVEYU
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